Wednesday, September 26, 2012
Gender Specific.
So, this place is basically neglected most of the time, but..I have to revive it somehow. So why not with the pictures of people I like? Right? As a lot of you know, i'm not gender specific when it comes to having a crush, or admiring, or even liking or dating someone, but these are a few people that I respect a lot.
Well, he's well known as slipknot's lead singer but he also has another band, not as recognised, but it's called stone sour, and it's absolutely amazing. Sure this guy can do screamo, but boy, can he sing. My favourite song is "Hesitate". (On a side note, this guy doesn't have a neck. He has a tree trunk for replacement.)
Then there's Mr Dwayne Johnson.Has always been, and will always be my childhood hero. Growing up with an older brother, you don't watch barbie and disney princesses. I grew up watching him, in the ring, mainly because my grandfather loves watching WWF (that was what it was called at that time), and not to mention, he kind of looks like my dad (well, since my dad is older, so he looks like my dad, not the other way round). And then venturing out to movies? I loved him in Fast 5. And then going back to the ring recently. Even has the "bad guy" in wrestling now, his fans are still vast, and I'm definitely one of them.
Emma Stone.Give me a girl with dimples, and i'm definitely smitten. She has a sense of humor too, so it isn't just in the looks department. She isn't afraid to show the world who she really is, and laughs about it, and well, even though she is famous and all, there is a degree of normality about her that is so absolutely refreshing (And my words are starting to sound like verses from criminal minds since i've been watching it day in and out) She's absolutely beautiful.
Megan Fucking Fox. WHO DOESN'T LIKE HER? She can turn straight women gay. and gay men straight. HAHAHA. okay yeah well, she is absolutely stunning, and definitely perfect to the bone. well, that's only physicality, since i'll never actually know what she's like. she could be a mean bitch for all we know. But who could ever refuse such perfection?
ADAM LEVINE. Lead singer of Maroon 5, if some people don't know that, and I watched him live a couple of days back at the Singapore F1 Grand Prix, and he's so amazing. I think i'll just die if he ever notices me and talks to me (well then, looks like i'll be living a long life. sigh.) And he's inked. I'm a sucker for someone who's inked, and his band has damn good music that I can totally relate to. haih.
Enrique. Need I say more? Those bed room eyes, and accent. enough to make any warm blooded female, warmer. (That got me thinking. is anyone actually attracted to the indian accent? Since i'm indian, i know i'm definitely not. But what about westerners? I'm always wondering if they like the indian accent or something. LOL.)
Matthew Gray Gubler - Model, and plays Dr. Spencer Reed in Criminal Minds. I liked him the first time I saw him on criminal minds, I thought about how geeky he looks and speaks, but there's just something, something about that face that's so attractive. Yes, I'm a sucker for both bad boys and geeks.
Keeping the best for the last,Singapore's own, Noel Boyd. (Okay I got this picture off his website here. He's got tattoos all over - Told you i'm a sucker for ink, and he's a good example of the inside not mirroring what's on the outside. You can tell he absolutely loves his kid, and the whole concept where "inks on this person. this gotta be a horrible, mean, [insert more words here]" That's not true. Hahaha. WTF. Bottom line is, he's great. Period.
Yes, this is a sorry attempt to revive my blog, but I felt like blogging, didn't have anything to blog about, and didn't want to rant *looks at previous post*
Sunday, August 26, 2012
Long Way to Go.
You know what I hate the most? I hate it when people judge me.
Yes, I drink. That doesn't make me an alcoholic. I still get up in the morning like everyone else, and go to school. I still pass my exams (most of the time), and no, contrary to what so many people who think they know me think, I don't drink everyday, or every chance I get. I can go clubbing and not drink at all. I've done it before. It's not that I don't have self control. Just cause I drink, it doesn't make me a bad person.
Yes, I occasionally smoke. That doesn't make me a failure. That's not going to ruin me, my future, my career, or anything like that at all. That's not going to ruin anything, except my possible health. And that's okay with me, because it is my health, and my body. Sure, so many people are going to be judging and saying that many would like to be healthy, and have a healthy body. Yes I sympathize that they don't, but no, that does not give ANYONE any reason to just tell me what to do with my own body. If I let anyone who said something about my body get to me, i'd be a size 0, with no boobs, no butt, my face would probably be falling off from all the plastic surgeries I would have gotten to make my nose sharper, my eyes bigger, and since I wouldn't have any boobs, it'll be boob jobs to make my boobs bigger.
Yes, I absolutely love tattoos, already have 2, and would probably have more in the future or near future. No, that doesn't make me a gangster, or hooligan, or a drop out with nowhere to go and no aim in life. I do actually. I want to be an educator. A teacher. Tattoos aren't going to stop me from getting it done, you know.
No, I'm no Virgin Mary. But no, that doesn't make me a slut or a whore, or someone guys can use to just have their awesome time with. HELL NO. Albeit I always end up giving it up to the wrong one, it still does not make me a slut. Stop trying to tell me abstinence is key. Sure, there are girls who would wait till their married to give it up, but I have another question of my own: What happens if the marriage doesn't work out and you get divorced? Is it going to be you and your hand the rest of your life, or are you actually going to find someone to share the ecstasy with? Or are you going to get married 10 times (assuming your marriage has failed more than once) just so that you can say "I'm not a slut because I have sex only after i'm married." Then that's fucking bullshit. You're no different from the rest of us girls who gave it up way before we got married. We're in the 21st century already, please tweak, tune, alter and stretch your thinking a little bit.
Yes, I'm fat. No, that doesn't mean i'm unhealthy and pig out on food all day in front of the television. NO. I'm the kind of person who'd rather, between the options of walking and taking a bus, i'd walk if the distance is reasonable. I'm not going to take the bus for one stop, unless i'm really tired. Yes, I'm on a sports team in school, and yes i'm still fat. At the very least I'm trying to make myself healthier. And no, I don't eat a lot everyday. It's just some days, where all you people come together to be all judgemental and pointing your stupid dirty fingers at me, that's when I have an outbreak. It's like Aliens vs Predators, only it's Shalania vs Food.
Yes, I hate it when people don't use proper english to make a first impression sometimes. Especially people I might potentially date. I know you people would go "beggars can't be choosers" because i'm fat and ugly and shit, but hey, I do have some standards, I'd rather not date if i know I'm not going to be able to stand the guy's grammar and english, and i'm going to feel the need to correct it and humiliate him throughout the whole date.
Yes, I put on shitloads of makeup. No, I don't do it so Tom, Dick and Harry over there can fall head over heels in love with my fake face. I do it because i'm insecure, and to make ME feel good about MYSELF. Some people photoshop, I just photoshop in 3D.
Yes, I fall in like too fast and too hard (I don't say love, because i've only ever loved 2 guys in my entire life), but that doesn't mean I'm weak. That just shows you that i'm still old fashioned. I like people, instead of things. I cherish people, and cry when I have to let them go, not things. In today's world, you see people more in love with their iphones (I know I still am though), or their gadgets more than they love people. Go sit in a restaurant, or hawker centre, and observe, whole families can be sitting together having dinner, but everyone's on some technology or another. See couples on dates, and they're also on their phones. (I'm not saying EVERYONE does that, but most people these days do.) Yes, I do that sometimes too, but only when I feel that i'm absolutely left out in a conversation, or i've got a text i should reply, but not hang on my phone the whole entire time.
Yes, I always try my hardest to see the best in people, but that doesn't mean i'm a saint. I'm flawed too. I have moments where I see someone's face and just tell myself I don't like that person. Or when someone hurts someone who's close to me, then I get mad and hate that person forever.
I hate being left out by my friends or whoever else. I hate people disappearing on me. What I dislike even more is when people appear, disappear, and reappear again when they want something. I hate not having people around me because i'm pretty much a people's person.
But on the surface, I always act like I don't care. That i'm okay with being left out by my groups of friends. That they talk about how fun their night was on a group chat, and I've got nothing to say. When I try to say something, and just get shot down by my friends, who won't listen, and think it's funny to annoy the fuck out of me. I act like it's okay for my bestfriend to get a girlfriend, and then completely forget I exist, even when we're in the same school. I act like it's okay when we're a group of people, and I feel like I don't belong.
I act like I'm fine when my brother doesn't really like to have me around, and he barely tolerates me even then. I act like it's okay when he just does things with me when it's convenient and he doesn't have his girlfriend or cousins or tons of friends to go out with. I act like it doesn't hurt when he gives anyone the look that says "don't ask her out" when they do. Then I act like I don't actually want to go, and you can see the relief in this eyes, and face. I feel like this because he's someone I love a lot, and having him feel this way about me, like his embarrassed, hurts.
People need to start to realise everything's not black and white, or right and wrong. Sure, there are pros and cons to everything, but whether the pros outweigh the cons, or the latter, no one has any reason to judge someone they don't know well so critically like they know everything.
Yes, I drink. That doesn't make me an alcoholic. I still get up in the morning like everyone else, and go to school. I still pass my exams (most of the time), and no, contrary to what so many people who think they know me think, I don't drink everyday, or every chance I get. I can go clubbing and not drink at all. I've done it before. It's not that I don't have self control. Just cause I drink, it doesn't make me a bad person.
Yes, I occasionally smoke. That doesn't make me a failure. That's not going to ruin me, my future, my career, or anything like that at all. That's not going to ruin anything, except my possible health. And that's okay with me, because it is my health, and my body. Sure, so many people are going to be judging and saying that many would like to be healthy, and have a healthy body. Yes I sympathize that they don't, but no, that does not give ANYONE any reason to just tell me what to do with my own body. If I let anyone who said something about my body get to me, i'd be a size 0, with no boobs, no butt, my face would probably be falling off from all the plastic surgeries I would have gotten to make my nose sharper, my eyes bigger, and since I wouldn't have any boobs, it'll be boob jobs to make my boobs bigger.
Yes, I absolutely love tattoos, already have 2, and would probably have more in the future or near future. No, that doesn't make me a gangster, or hooligan, or a drop out with nowhere to go and no aim in life. I do actually. I want to be an educator. A teacher. Tattoos aren't going to stop me from getting it done, you know.
No, I'm no Virgin Mary. But no, that doesn't make me a slut or a whore, or someone guys can use to just have their awesome time with. HELL NO. Albeit I always end up giving it up to the wrong one, it still does not make me a slut. Stop trying to tell me abstinence is key. Sure, there are girls who would wait till their married to give it up, but I have another question of my own: What happens if the marriage doesn't work out and you get divorced? Is it going to be you and your hand the rest of your life, or are you actually going to find someone to share the ecstasy with? Or are you going to get married 10 times (assuming your marriage has failed more than once) just so that you can say "I'm not a slut because I have sex only after i'm married." Then that's fucking bullshit. You're no different from the rest of us girls who gave it up way before we got married. We're in the 21st century already, please tweak, tune, alter and stretch your thinking a little bit.
Yes, I'm fat. No, that doesn't mean i'm unhealthy and pig out on food all day in front of the television. NO. I'm the kind of person who'd rather, between the options of walking and taking a bus, i'd walk if the distance is reasonable. I'm not going to take the bus for one stop, unless i'm really tired. Yes, I'm on a sports team in school, and yes i'm still fat. At the very least I'm trying to make myself healthier. And no, I don't eat a lot everyday. It's just some days, where all you people come together to be all judgemental and pointing your stupid dirty fingers at me, that's when I have an outbreak. It's like Aliens vs Predators, only it's Shalania vs Food.
Yes, I hate it when people don't use proper english to make a first impression sometimes. Especially people I might potentially date. I know you people would go "beggars can't be choosers" because i'm fat and ugly and shit, but hey, I do have some standards, I'd rather not date if i know I'm not going to be able to stand the guy's grammar and english, and i'm going to feel the need to correct it and humiliate him throughout the whole date.
Yes, I put on shitloads of makeup. No, I don't do it so Tom, Dick and Harry over there can fall head over heels in love with my fake face. I do it because i'm insecure, and to make ME feel good about MYSELF. Some people photoshop, I just photoshop in 3D.
Yes, I fall in like too fast and too hard (I don't say love, because i've only ever loved 2 guys in my entire life), but that doesn't mean I'm weak. That just shows you that i'm still old fashioned. I like people, instead of things. I cherish people, and cry when I have to let them go, not things. In today's world, you see people more in love with their iphones (I know I still am though), or their gadgets more than they love people. Go sit in a restaurant, or hawker centre, and observe, whole families can be sitting together having dinner, but everyone's on some technology or another. See couples on dates, and they're also on their phones. (I'm not saying EVERYONE does that, but most people these days do.) Yes, I do that sometimes too, but only when I feel that i'm absolutely left out in a conversation, or i've got a text i should reply, but not hang on my phone the whole entire time.
Yes, I always try my hardest to see the best in people, but that doesn't mean i'm a saint. I'm flawed too. I have moments where I see someone's face and just tell myself I don't like that person. Or when someone hurts someone who's close to me, then I get mad and hate that person forever.
I hate being left out by my friends or whoever else. I hate people disappearing on me. What I dislike even more is when people appear, disappear, and reappear again when they want something. I hate not having people around me because i'm pretty much a people's person.
But on the surface, I always act like I don't care. That i'm okay with being left out by my groups of friends. That they talk about how fun their night was on a group chat, and I've got nothing to say. When I try to say something, and just get shot down by my friends, who won't listen, and think it's funny to annoy the fuck out of me. I act like it's okay for my bestfriend to get a girlfriend, and then completely forget I exist, even when we're in the same school. I act like it's okay when we're a group of people, and I feel like I don't belong.
I act like I'm fine when my brother doesn't really like to have me around, and he barely tolerates me even then. I act like it's okay when he just does things with me when it's convenient and he doesn't have his girlfriend or cousins or tons of friends to go out with. I act like it doesn't hurt when he gives anyone the look that says "don't ask her out" when they do. Then I act like I don't actually want to go, and you can see the relief in this eyes, and face. I feel like this because he's someone I love a lot, and having him feel this way about me, like his embarrassed, hurts.
People need to start to realise everything's not black and white, or right and wrong. Sure, there are pros and cons to everything, but whether the pros outweigh the cons, or the latter, no one has any reason to judge someone they don't know well so critically like they know everything.
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Of stereotyping, and non existent balls.
So I was wondering. I have this theory where there is probably something wrong with me, and I'm kind of pretty sure there is.
I absolutely hate it when I start getting to know someone, or we're talking, and things are going alright, and then they just *poof* stop talking to me all of a sudden. It's annoying and ridiculous and I hate it.
If you don't want to talk to me anymore, the least you could do was man up and tell me that you don't think this is working, or that you don't think you can talk to me cause I'm not attractive or whatever.
You know what's the worst? When they tell you not to knock them off yet, that they aren't like other guys, that I shouldn't stereotype, but they go ahead and do all the same shit the guy before does, and expect me to think you're different?
Oh please. Have some balls at least to say you think I'm ugly, or that I have a horrible attitude and you can't stand looking at me or talking to me or whatever. Don't just ignore and not say anything, fuckers.
You're fucking disgusting, and you're horrible and mean.
I absolutely hate it when I start getting to know someone, or we're talking, and things are going alright, and then they just *poof* stop talking to me all of a sudden. It's annoying and ridiculous and I hate it.
If you don't want to talk to me anymore, the least you could do was man up and tell me that you don't think this is working, or that you don't think you can talk to me cause I'm not attractive or whatever.
You know what's the worst? When they tell you not to knock them off yet, that they aren't like other guys, that I shouldn't stereotype, but they go ahead and do all the same shit the guy before does, and expect me to think you're different?
Oh please. Have some balls at least to say you think I'm ugly, or that I have a horrible attitude and you can't stand looking at me or talking to me or whatever. Don't just ignore and not say anything, fuckers.
You're fucking disgusting, and you're horrible and mean.
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
Maybe..
Maybe there really is something wrong with me. I can't seem to have someone long enough. Sure, they're interested for a little while, and then it's just "oh, i don't want a relationship" or "im a commitment phobe" or "I love kissing you, but i'm interested in your friend". fuck you fuck you fuck you all. ugh. kbye.
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Penis
Honestly, I really hate being lied to. Sure, I lie too, but to my parents. I hate it when other people lie to me, especially when I've been nothing but completely honest. I don't lie about the kind of person I am, I don't care what people think once they know who I really am, because the people who matter, they don't care. They accept me for who I am, and that's the best for me.
Whoever else, please just refer to the picture. Kbye.
Whoever else, please just refer to the picture. Kbye.
Titanium
Would you be shocked if the last person you kissed texted you right now?
- HAHAHA, not really. Which of your friends would you be most likely to get arrested with?: - Arrested? HAHA! Would be Janeni, Kavinash and Shanmugam. cousins, and we do the craziest fucking shit together. Was 2009 a good year for you?: - I don't remember it, so if i don't remember it, it probably sucked. haha. How many different colors has your hair been?: - black, blonde, brown. When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug?: - Eh, last week? Today, would you rather go forward a week or back a week?: - I would rather go forward a week. Who was the last person to text you?: - Janeni What were you doing at 7:30 last night?: - opening the door for my mother. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?: - One. Ever cried while you were on the phone with someone?: - HAHA, omg yes. Don't tell me lies, so is the last person you texted attractive?: - She is smoking hot. Is it okay if you kiss people when you're single?: - Yes, as long as the other person is single too. Has your name been in someone's status lately?: - erm, nope. What did you do today?: - Study, hockey, study Will next friday be a good one?: - I hope tomorrow will be a good one. Have you ever slept in the same bed with anyone on your close friends of the opposite gender?:
- Yup
When was the last time you were told your cute?: - I don't remember Have you dated the person you texted last?: - I date her all the time! :D Say your last ex walks up to you and hugs you, what do you say?: - ask him wtf? Are you the type of person who likes to be out or home?: - out, but i have an overbearing uptight dad that has like a stick up his arse, so i don't have a choice but to stay at home. Has a boy/girl put their arm around you the past 5 days?: - yes Do you automatically check your phone when you wake up?: - I don't do that anymore. Now i just wake up, shower, then sit and check my phone Who can you tell anything & everything to?: - Janeni What are your plans for your next birthday?: - it's my 21st, but i don't plan on doing anything. Who was the last person you had a conversation with and what about?: - I am having conversations with a few people right now. haha. How is life going for you right now?: - meh Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth?: - No one NEEDS to know the truth, everyone just WANTS to know the truth. What is your favorite fruit?: - strawberries, have always been, will always be. Have you met anyone new lately?: - Yup Do you give out second chances easily?: - yes, a bit too easily Do you like hugs or do you freak when people hug you?: - I LOVE HUGS. Best thing that happened to you this week?: - nothing. haha. literally nothing. One thing you're looking forward to?: - The weekend where im going to work! Do you think anyone out there loves you?: - I guess?
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